Wednesday, 21 March 2012

A Simple and Nice Wednesday

 I did it..
Walked in with nerves
Received it with grace

I was school at 9 o’clock
Wandering around with my mum
Talking with Kee, Austin and Man
I was amazed how everyone had changed after these three months
We grow so much
From the naïve ones
To the matured ones
We are no longer the vulnerable ones
Be the reliable ones

At 10 o’clock
Everyone was supposed to be in the hall
Waiting for the call
I dare not walk into it
Tears began to form in my eyes
It was so annoying when people knew their results early
And bragged to everyone
Especially that jerk..
Haha
So I stay outside the hallway
Bumped into Alan and his mother
She is very approachable, accessible and amiable
Gave us the courage
Lifted our spirit
Though I didn’t get better anyway
The butterflies in my stomach just won’t go away

To canteen. To library. To toilet. To field
Anywhere as long as my legs would carry me
Can’t face the truth, mean one

That was the time when the recollection of memories began
I worked so hard
Sacrificed everything
Could’nt afford to lose them all now
I asked myself
“Do I really deserve this?”
I have no idea
Doubted. Hesitated. Confused. Devastated
Perhaps
There will be a time when I will abandon myself
Because we will never able to justify
Have we done enough?

I cried
Made up the worst thought in my mind
Armed myself with a thick skin
Not to bother about others
Everyone was so eager
Standing in front of teachers’ table
I walked away
Hope that I can get my results after everyone had left
Quietly..

And then I heard my mum’s scream
Unsure if it was a good or bad one
Because I was still outside the hall
She raced to me telling that I got 12A+
Stunned. Hugged.
And I cried, more buckets of water were pouring out

Never expect it before (not to be clichéd, but it’s true)
Chinese and EST had always been the nails in my ass
We are so worried
And I just managed to kill them all!

Getting this result
It means so much to me and my mum
I would probably secure JPA scholarship
To further my education
And get some ‘Angpau’ from government
So as to cover some living expenses

Life is hard
You are just living the easy way

Finally, my months of exhausting work life is rewarded with a PEARL
No matter how unnoticeable was it on its cover
How long did it take to form the sparkle
One day
It will just shine
People will recognize
True beauty always comes from within

I have my mother, the late grandmother, sister, teachers, tuition teachers and friends to thank
You make me who I am
Give colors when I am plain
Comfort me in times of pain
A helping hand when I am sinking
Distract me when too much did I think

GOD BLESS YOU

I’m reading some newspaper now
Found news about me
What the hell were the reporters doing?
They simply distorted my points given to them!
But anyway, I’m grateful for I’m worth for their pen
Checklist
·      Straight A+? Yes
·      Scholarship? Not sure
·      Media coverage? Plenty
·      Console my friends? Haven’t, because I was not allowed texting when at work
·      Plans? Incomplete without the monetary beauty

Yes I got 12A+!
I’m very happy
A moment to be remembered until I die
The glory of being the ONE
Anyway, I wouldn’t get carried away by the thought of success
Felt complacent with what I achieved
Because

I’ve always want bigger than that!



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