Every cloud has its silver lining

It has been a while since I last met Milan. These days were quite mentally and physically exhausting to me, after undergoing so many ups and downs for the first time in my life. I’m very surprised that I didn’t get matriculation for which I think I’m more than to be qualified. What baffles me is that seeing some really bad students in my school who got it! The once promised emphasis on academy and extracurricular activity is totally overlooked and discarded! Those lucky guys were all sons of G servant. Some is doctor, some is JKR staff, some are teachers. It just frustrates me to the MAX.

I remember the night when MOE slapped my face, shouting at me,” Harap maaf, anda tidak berjaya”. I was so sad, depressed and broke down to tears. All these things have made me feel I’m a totally useless shit. I feel like I can’t even make my mom proud of me despite having the best result. A recognition is not recognized when the basic form of appreciation doesn’t bear testimony to it.

To my surprise, or rather, horror, I found out that there are so many AMC girls who got matriculation, despite having “ordinary” results too. But I have to admit that the top student did get what she wanted, because her mother is a teacher, after all.

What is the criterion to be chosen? The status of G? Academic results? Extracurricular marks? Appeal to the superior before Matriculation result is announced? Or simply dirty tricks?

I don’t know, it is none of my business, as mine is not even taken care of.

Hopefully my appeal is heard by the superiors. Please help me, I just want my future to walk on a safe path. I need it more than those rich students who just enjoy their lives to the fullest. I don’t have such opportunities already. My mum is sick, and so as my friend’s father. Who else can understand and empathize with our situation more than we could?

This is driving me crazy. I’m sick of being disappointed again.

真的很不明白

有些人能够呼风唤雨   心想事成

而我还要继续被上天磨练 

不幸的事情似乎排山倒海而来

真的希望承梁老师贵言

这只不过是过渡期

种种挫折是促发我们在生命中成长的因素

到最后谁是赢家

还是个未知数

但我坚信  我是先苦后甜的人